annexandria

God, I'm so sick of flaky friends.  I'm tired of being the one who has to come crawling back to people.  I seem to always find the people who could really care less if we do anything together, unless I have something to offer them.  Well, I'm not going to do it anymore.  I'm tired of trying to be friendly in hopes that my "friends" will choose to spend time with me, or notice the fact that we haven't fucking talked to each other in several months, and the times that we have talked to each other was only when I went out of my way to fucking talk to them.  I'm tired of friends who make shit out of nothing, or out of shit that happened forever ago and was resolved until everyone decided that they didn't have anything better to do and brought it back up.  I hate the feeling of sitting on the edge of my seat, waiting for a promised call that never comes, or for an IM that never happens.  I just don't fucking care anymore.  I hate loosing friends, especially when they decide that I'm no longer worth they're time.  It sucks, and it makes me feel used, but I've realized that they don't really care.  Fine.  Whatever.  Also, I'm tired of being guilt tripped into either going back to these friends or into believing that our lost relationship is my fucking fault.  Well, forget it.  From now on, I won't do it any more.  You want to be friends?  Fine.  Make a move to show me that it's not just me who is interested.

Not that half the people this applies to even read my fucking journal anyway, which just shows how much those people care.