annexandria

 So lately, I feel that I'm loosing a lot of my friends, not that I had many to begin with.  I don't know if it's because they no longer have any desire to spend any time with me at all, not one invite to houses, movies, or to anywhere.  I also realize that I have not been inviting peoples either, but, for some reason, I keep coming up with reasons not to, mostly that they will turn me down with some reason or another that is probably perfectly reasonable, but leaves doubt in my mind.  Not that I'm trying to offend anyone, I just seriously have this fear of rejection that I've gotten better about.  There was a time that I wouldn't even ask for help at a store.  This is just something I've been thinking about, especially when I hear about all the fun things my friends are doing while I sit at home and deal with a moody father and sometimes a moody mother or when I see how many new friends everyone has made and I realize that I haven't really made any more.  I know that part of my lack of new friends is because I'm not taking any "social" classes where there is a lot of time to converse with your classmates.

Also, we had to put my dog to sleep the day after Valentine's day.

I am also very excited for Acen.